1. Get rid of all negativity (mind and soul)
I know this seems simple but at last it is not. Especially being that we are surrounded be negativity everywhere. We can not change others but we can change ourselves. So the first step is to change my way of thinking. I will take note of my negative thoughts for a day or two. Then after I recognize these thoughts I will quash them. This will be only possible through practice. I am reading "The Secret" to help me with this. (Please note this is not a book of religion but a school of thought)Also I have placed positive messages where I can see them everyday. Telling myself that I am beautiful and God made no mistakes on making me. Telling myself that I can do whatever I want by striving for it only if it is meant for me. That I am blessed and that I am a blessing. Oh yes and above all I tell myself I love me. This is not conceit. Wouldn't you tell your baby these things?
I must get rid of all the negative people around me. This one is very easy for me. If someone is getting on my nerves, I will leave or ask them to get the hell away from me. A little story. When I was in Seattle I was at karaoke and I was speaking to an older lady and I told her I was moving to Los Angles. She gave me the best advice ever. She said, "you have a beautiful light within you. DO NOT let anyone take that from you." My light being my positive nature and out look. People flock to your light like moths to a flame but then they try to put it out or steal it. Now when I moved to Los Angeles and people start to flock to me then tried to tear me down. When you are in the entertainment business very few wants to see you succeed and tearing you down is a common practice. This is when you must allow your light to burn stronger and brighter but I allowed people to dim it. Not put it out I am too strong of a broad for that but it was dimmed. People telling I will not make it. Being told that I am cute but not "the right type" Men interested in me but only for sex but not to treasure the queen that is me. Oh honey negativity hit me from every angle. Here is another story. I had just gotten to Los Angeles and I was very alone and lonely. I met this older man who saw that but he also saw my light. He was nice seemingly. I needed someone to talk to. I was crying I was telling him how alone I felt. How sad i was. How I felt weak. You know what this bastard did. He got excited then told me I need to have some of his strength in me. I would like to tell you I fought the good fight and told him go f*** him self but at last I did not. Sad isn't it but valuable. I learn right then and there that I must love myself and be strong for me. Wouldn't you be there and be strong for your baby? No one was there for me including myself but NO MORE!!!!
2. Health and Exercise (mind and body)
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This is the area I totally suck at but the area i am working the hardest in. Now I read this blog called zenblog (I think). The author said take baby steps and that is what I am doing. This is a way I can build my positive thinking. I will exercise for 2 minutes a day. I know your like WTF 2 minutes a day. Yes anyone can do 2 minutes a day and if you do this for a week you will have a since of accomplishment. I am telling my baby she can do it. I will become very proud of myself and I will increase my minutes a day the next week and so on til I am up to 20 to 30 minutes a day. Now I am going to tell you what I am going to do. I will put my start date out. That doesn't mean not exercise now but I will start my scheduled exercise at a later date because when I say I am going to do something and say I will start right now it never works. So I am planning. I will be taking pole dancing lessons and working out with my friend every Tuesday and Thursday starting on the 27th of Jan. And I will be taking swim and tap lessons every Monday and Wednesday. I will keep you posted. (Pun intended)
health
Again baby steps. Now my problem is not eating a lot because I do not. I just eat the wrong things. So I decided that I will wing myself off of the things that are harming me. Now keep in mind I was raised on the natural way of healing yourself by my mom. So I will take this knowledge and use it for good. :-) Every week I will give up one thing that is so wrong for me and add one thing that is so right. This week I gave up flour. It is amazing how many things are made with flour (all flours). I have come to find out that I am allergic to flour. It causes me to sneeze, throat to itch and it cause me to have acid reflux. I have add more grain and veggies.
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